When to show Kindness

I'm sure all of you have run into difficult situation when it comes to dealing with people. I have, and quite regularly. I wonder if I wasn't so conscious about how I spend my money and attempting to apply some energy saving/cost efficient habits then maybe I would be faced with such interesting predicaments. So now that you have probably figured out who I am dealing with I will go on with what a reaction should be, considering I have done the opposite.

The first thing anybody would be inclined to do is blow up in the persons face, blow them off and treat them the way one believes that they should be treated. While how good that might feel, I can guarantee right now that it is not the way to respond. Now I will probably never stop with my habits because I was brought up to save money and not be wasteful. While I would love to throw a punch or get into some big fat argument I wont. What I will do is to pray. Pray not only for them but that I might have a change of heart, that I might be able to not get irritated by the little things and pray that I can show love and kindness no matter what the circumstances.

I will NOT stop doing dishes when I see them in the sink. I will NOT stop picking up stuff when I see it lying around. I will NOT stop turning lights off when I leave a room. I WILL attempt to stop getting irritated and I WILL attempt to always show love. To be like Christ in all situations.

And that, my friends, is one time when we should show kindness.

Grace Like Mine

So I was reading in Matthew this morning about the servant who owed a debt. Matthew 18:23-35. It is a rather interesting story. I find it very true considering making a movie on credit easily puts me into the same situation as the two debtors in the parable.

Now wouldn't it be nice if I was given the grace as the fist debtor received?

26. "The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' 27. The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go."

The amount of grace for me would be overwhelming, or even if I was given a job that would provide me the money to pay back my debts, or if my movie sold and made the money back I would need to pay off my debts. Any of those would be great, but what did this forgiven servant do in return?

28. "But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.
29. "His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him. "Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'
30."But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt."

So, I am pretty sure that the story is not of a man being forgiven of his debt but what he does in response to it. If I was to be given the grace of a relinquished debt what would my response be? Would I become overly tight with what I have been given as a result from being in debt? I hope not when it comes to it's effects on others. I believe the lesson Jesus wants us to learn is to give freely, and love. I'm not saying to go toss dollar bills of the freeway over pass, rather let me put it in Jesus' words:

35. "...forgive your brother from your heart."

Huckabee Comeback

So you might know from seeing my little donate deal on this blog that I am a Mike Huckabee supporter. I wish that my debts of trying to pay back the investment of the film I made did not hinder me so much, hopefully soon, that will change.

In any case, I figure I'd at least give me support to Huckabee. He was expected to drop out of the raise months ago and each time an election period comes he stays in it. Now the Republican party is down to two candidates for the party nomination. John McCain and Mike Huckabee.

If you live in Kansas or any of the other states voting on Saturday, or that haven't voted yet. Vote Huckabee. You can also donate to his campaign with the little deal I have on this site.

that's all. Go A's.

Sudden Urge

I got the urge to write a musical today. A blend of classic 50s Broadway with a dark twist and modern edge. Could be fun, now only to come up with a story.

Check out the new series/mocumentary I will be working on in February. The good ol' bro and I are making a film.

http://roads.stgham.com

Beauty in things forsaken

Have you ever wondered why many Christians are so quick to judge things such as movies. They see something that scares them just a little bit and it is immediately of the Devil.

Well, with all that aside I have found some truly valuable gems in movies that otherwise would be considered sinful.

Here are a few for you to think over:

From Dusk Till Dawn

SETH GECKO
Are you just a faithless preacher,
or are you a mother f****** servant
of God?

JACOB FULLER
I'm a...mmmmm....mmm...hmmm...hmm...
servant of God.


Black Snake Moan

RAE
You know how people are always saying
you gotta get right with Jesus if you
want not to go to hell. You kinda say
you're sorry and Jesus will let you
into heaven.

REVEREND R.L.:
You can put it that way....What's on
your mind?

RAE:
You can't go around hurting people and
say you're sorry and it all gets washed
away. Why would heaven want people like
that?

REVEREND R.L.:
I'm gonna tell you something and it's
just gonna be between you and me. I
think folks carry on about heaven too
much, like it's some kinda all you can
eat buffet up in the clouds, and folks
just do as their told so they can eat
whatever they want behind some pearly
gates.
(beat)
There's sin in my heart, there's evil
in the world, but when I got no one I
talk to God. I ask for strength, I ask
for forgiveness -- not peace at the end
of my days when I got no more life to
live or no more good to do, but today,
right now.
(beat)
What's your heaven?


Dogma

BARTLEBY
In the beginning, it was just us and
Him. Angels and God. And then He
created the humans. And He gave them
more than He ever gave us. Our's was
designed to be a life of servitude
and worship - adoration. But He gave
the humans more - He gave them a
choice. They can choose to ignore
God, choose to acknowledge Him. All
this time we've been down here,
everyday I felt the absence of the
Divine presence. And it pained me...
as I'm sure it must have pained you
sometimes, even though you'd gloss
over it with jokes. But we feel his
absence, and why? Because of the
way He made us -as servants. Had
we been given free will, we could
ignore the pain... like them.

LOKI
You know - maybe you should take
a nap or something.

BARTLEBY
Loki, don't you get it? It's the
humans - it's always the humans.
They were given paradise; they
threw it away. They were given
this planet; they destroyed it.
They were favored best among all
His endeavors; and some of them
don't even believe He exists.
Their ego-mania corroded Hell and
made it dark and crimson.


So there are a few things I find worth while is some films that are often times considered ungodly or repulsive. God can use anybody...anybody.

Psalm 42

1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.

2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?

3 My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.

5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and 6 my God.
My [c] soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.

7 Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.

8 By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.

9 I say to God my Rock,
"Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?"

10 My bones suffer mortal agony
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

11 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Trusting

I am pretty sure that no one reads this blog but none the less I write here. If you don't know a thing about me I am a Christian and face the same issues anyone does. Anyway, about 8 months back I made a decision to spend a lot of money to make a feature film. A lot of money that was all on credit.

Not sure if that was a good idea or not but what I do know is that 1) it is taking a lot longer to finish this project than I was hoping and 2) that the payments I have to make each month are so overwhelming it makes me wonder how I'm going to continue. I have a job interview for auto sales today that I will probably go to just so I can start making money. I am drastically behind in my bills and am hoping that I will be able to cover what I owe, even as early as tomorrow...or today.

This is teaching me that I need to put a whole lot of trust in God, cause I am not doing very well finacially at all.

Let's hope I can make some money. Oh how nice it would be to get about $5000 dropped in my lap - that might catch me up.

Trust God, Trust God.

Yikes!

Have you ever wondered why it is so easy to find a job when you don't really need one and insanely difficult to near impossible to find one when you are desperate to make enough money to pay your bills?

So I've been applying for jobs for the two months and have not even been called in for an interview. To top it off, background work doesn't pay the outrageous amounts I owe for the movie I just made and I wont be selling it for another few months.

So with that said. Anyone have a job opening that pays around $15+ an hour?

The U.S. Cowboy

Well, I have a blog for my first feature film, Bounty, and have been focusing that on just the production but thought I would start one that was a little more random and less constrained. Even though I never grew up on a ranch or a farm and can not stand country music twang, which is about 97% of the music, people still consider me a kind of cowboy. It could be in my rougeish type attitude of being the adventure and rustic type of person that I am. So with that said I am attributing the title of this blog to that and the layout to that as well.

I figure I can add some travel fun things here as well and whatever else comes to mind.

that is all, I am creating shot lists for my script currently.